I promised myself that i will not cry cause of this seperation but it's getting worse day by day...
everytime when i think of him, i feel like i'm gonna cry but i stop myself, teardrops are making a huge ocean inside of me, all of memories and emotions are swimming inside of it...
i wanna cry! i just wanna cry and let them go away with my tears... i wanna escape from them... i just wanna go away and forget...
at frist i locked my feeling inside because i thought i could ignore them and keep living ike nothing has happened but as i remember the moments that we live feelings got bigger and bigger now i don't wanna lock my feelings inside of me anymore cause i feel like i'm gonna explode...
i keep telling myself that this seperation didn't hurt me, it really didn't but everytime i make my tears don't go out, the pain is getting bigger and bigger! i really need to cry and let everything go...
but i still can't do, i still can't let myself cry cause i think he doesn't deserve my attention and my sadness, i really shouldn't waste my time for him... but i really can't keep them anymore, i'm trying to convince myself with telling i'm gonna cry for myself to relieve...
i don't care at all, i just wanna cry and let everything go away... i wanna wash away his touches from my face, i want my tears to touch my lips and erase his marks... i want this song to end...

i don't know, really don't know... time will show!!

gizem...